45th! ;)

I’m supposed to be sleeping. But I’d been stalking my lil cousin’s post on fb when I saw her posting something bout love love all. Haha I’m just a concerned cousin,I went to check all her recent posts and comments out,hoping to find out who the guy was haha. So kpo I know. But I’m really being concerned since her parents don’t fb all. She needs someone to watch over her in the cyber world. Lol

Anw I found out some frens mentioning this guy name so I went to track his profile down. Okay I sound super stalkerish now. Anw I cheCked out a few guys la. Her frens that is. They looks like small boy tho they’re alrdy sec 1. Which reminds me of those sec 1 days. How I was so afraid of talking to guys since I came from a convent school. I was shy rather haha. Okay I sound silly here. But I still am when I talk to guys i’m not familiar with. I would like to associate it with the lack in self confidence in myself. ESP having to talk to good looking guys. Omg,I’d be dumb founded! Lol
So I recall how nic looked in sec 1,hakim,praba and all the other guys in my class looked and how much they’ve changed into a cute boy to a man serving our country now. And all the boys disturb the girls and rumour of who liking who. Sounds childish now. But I really miss those innocent puppy love days. Haha. And all the wondering eyes when classes pass by my class to look out for eye candy all. Or when the guys looked in and shout a particular person’s name. Okay I admit,it feels good to know that I’m actually admired okay cos I always hv very lil confident in myself,I find it hard to believe there are people out there who appreciate my looks. And till date,I dont think my confidence level has really improved. I’m still very conscious bout my fat thighs,my hair arms,me being hairy. Actually hairy and fat sums it all up la. Thats why first thing I would do when I start a job would be to go for full body head to toe IPL seriously. It will really help lift my confidence level. I know it will cos I always feel good after waxing and threading I really do.
Arghhh woe of being me. Sigh. I always kid with bee when he complains how hairy I am,that he shld beware if he wanna hv kids with me,cos who knows maybe our kids come out got armpit hair liao cos the mother too hairy HAHAHA! Okay thats disgusting. Lol.
Alright back to topic,so I really enjoyed my sec school days. No doubt it’s the best 4 yrs of my education life and yup I guess it’ll be the most unforgettable 4 yrs of my life on earth. Cos firstly,I’ve made and found frens I really wanna have them ard for life. Yes I wanna see them get married,have kids( I wanna be their kids godmama),do well in their career,invite me to their humble place for hse warming,hv high tea with them when we retire(haha!) and even when they’re on their death bed(don’t wish for that to happen cos I want them to live longer than me),I wanna be there for and with them. Secondly,that’s also where I found the first boy who yup admired me and care enough to wanna be with me. But I’m such a bad girl I broke his heart eventually. He’s a nice guy really and I’d take him as a benchmark for choosing my future hubby cos he’s a family guy with the brains. Thirdly and most importantly,I was given a chance to meet bee. Am really thankful for that. And ydae marks our 45th month tether!
Okay enough rambling. I really wanna go on but i mist really sleep now. Night!