Back.

Back. Nothing feels better than having my own bed to sleep on,my smelly bolster I sniff to sleep,my comfy blanket with my smell…

Bkk was awesome cos of cheapass shopping and food. The hotel (Holiday Inn) we resided in was awesome too,for the price we paid. Location,service and the room wise. I gotta give a thumbs up for that. We agreed that we’re gonna just keep to HI the next time we visit. Did so much shopping,we went with 3 luggages and 4 back.  Not forgetting plus a hand carry bag as well. They (parents and bro) kept pointing fingers at me for buying so much clothes and yada yada. But seriously I think I didnt get enough. I really did control and try not to make impulsive buys or I think we might need another luggage. I dont think I got alot for myself. Almost half of my luggage was filled with stuff for friends and bee. Cant believe I got only 2 bags for myself and NO footwears. No heels,flats or sandles leh. And and never manage to get any bag to replace my laupokgai bag for school leh. And my parents blaming me for buying so much. Tsk

But I really enjoyed myself nonetheless. Though I had some regrets for not doing having enough time to get my mani and pedi done. Cheap like dunno what you know. 700 bhat which is about 30 SGD for full mani and pedi plus free foot scrub. O.P.I nail polish somemore. Not those chepalang type. OMG,where to get such good rates here in spore?? Damm sad can. Kena played out by them (parents and bro) actually. Told me last day do last day do,end up last day no time and made me waste time waiting for them,searching for damm stall at chatuchak. Wa thinking of it now makes me boil

Regrets aside,I did foot massage on the first day cos our legs were already aching after walking on the first day and back to get full body massage and foot scrub on the last night. So shiok. Wished massages were cheaper here. I really cant wait to go back there again next year if possible. Didnt manage to visit Suan Lum cos we didnt wanna waste time getting stuck in jams. Seriously,the govt really needs to do something about the traffic there. It’s so heavy. 4 days there and there’re roads practically jammed day in and out. And I notice almost half of the vehicle on the road consist of taxis and tuktuks. You know we saw this long truck trying to get out from a minor to major road when we’re walking to this mall. And after walking out from the mall 20 mins later,that truck is only half way out of the minor road into the major. Yes,he was hogging 2-3 lanes and no vehicles on the 3rd or 4th lane wanna give way to him. So yeah the roads there are so damm chaotic. After 4 days of crossing lawless roads,I kinda overcomed my fear of crossing wide roads in Bkk. I dunno bout Spore yet cos the drivers there are patient and they are experienced enough to anticipate pedistrians dashing out and crossing anywhere. If i were to apply my road crossing technique here,I’m not surprised I get run down.

Alright enough on Bkk cos the more I relate my stay there,the more I’m missing that place I hope HH’s having his funfilled time there now. Oh,btw I think it’s best to be there during dec (the christmas season). I think that speaks for most of other countries too cos everywhere’s year end/christmas sale sale and more sale. So yeah. Oh I forgot to mention I saw a sec school fren and DOM there!!! haha. Such a small small world. And all in the same mall haha and I kept bumming into dom after the first time I saw him. Even saw him in another mall. Fated ah fated. hahah. But hmm,there’re really alot of sporean there. Everywhere u go,left or right,sure to have a sporean beside you.

So now that I’m slapped back to reality – TP on wed. I’m freaking out,really. I dont wanna fail cos SSDC’s moving to very woody land (woodlands). So far and and they’re gonna do without parking poles now. Pls god lemme pass pls. Pray for me pls. I’m really in dire state to pass. Just once. Lemme pass just this once. And I dont wanna continue spending my mum’s money too. Those thousand odd I use for my lessons can be put to better use in future and what’s more those are mummy’s savings I’m eating into. Okay so just pray I dont kan chiong,do my best and just lemme pass. It’s christmas week anyway. Getting my license would certainly be the best christmas gift,ever.

I cant wait for the xmas party at dom’s on the 23rd and to see nic and HH soon. I haven seen them for week odd and I dunno why but it feels weird not seeing them. And bee. He has been posted to his unit and so it’s back to lonely time for me now. But hmm,actually when I think about it,doesnt make much of a difference. Only difference is I cant call him as and when I like to disturb him or just to whine. And perhaps to see him every other day. Dunno if it’s a good thing to say I’ve gotten used to it or bad. Sometimes I really wonder if I’m too demanding and do I really make a good partner…

Alright,troubles aside. It’s xmas week so I should be basking in joy rather than sorrows. Have a blessed week ahead!

So today,

was spent under the comforter,nursing a very mentally and physically exhausted me. Plus trying to break high scores on bejeweled. Guess whose high score ima trying to break? My MUM!! She bejewel day in and out and i’m still 100k away from her. Crazy mum i have there. Oh well,i hope i get well soon. Not complaining that I get to rest in and do nothing today. But i’d rather be with my classmates having a good dinner and laughing away Anyway,6 more days till i get to indulge in so much shopping,massages and food. Really looking forward to it. Gonna pack light in case i go crazy grabbing so much. Hee. Alright,time to do my temp check. Hopefully i’m well enough to get out to neaten my brows and do my nails tml. Have a good weekend!

Brudder oh brudder

Sending my bro off to the airport in awhile. Gonna miss him for one week. Shall pend my BD for now. I’d rather stay up later to complete. I know I’m pessimistic here. But I dont wanna have any regrets if something were to happen to him. So at least I get to see him one last time. Okay,gonna hug him later and make him paiseh in front of his friends. HOHOHO

FML!!!

I’m so pissed and stressed now I cant breathe. Just realised we have quite aalot of stuff not done for BD. Underestimated alot of requirements for the report. I dont think I’m overreacting cos I think we really have alot to catch up on for the next 3 days. Friday’s the deadline damm. We actually had pretty good time on hand before that but okay I shant go into elaboration. I should have taken the initiative. Lesson learnt and yes shall be wiser next time. And noone’s a know-it-all. I shall impart that on my mind. Plus the moozies in my room aint making things any better for me. Biting me on my thighs. Just applied mozzies repellant. I hope they dont bite and infuriate me further or I swear I’ll go crazy. Okay off to settle BD. I HATE BD!!!!!!! Freaking waste of time!!!!!!! :(:(:(:(

Took my heart to the limit and this is what I got

It’s almost 3am. I finally balanced my worksheet. This afternoon at bee’s was so unproductive. Doesnt matter. Just really thankful I managed to balance it otherwise I’ll have another late late night. My throat’s starting to hurt alot and I’m starting to feeel feverish. All thanks to the damm oreo I had,plus that pack of hello panda. I cant afford to be under the weather cos next week’s a crucial week. I hope the pain wont escalate and the fever will subside Very much wanna go for service tml since I haven been to church for the past 1 month or so. Shame on me. So I really hope I get better when I get up in the morning.

I was really moody the entire night. 360 degree change from the noon. Just thought bout my mood before the weekend, during and probably after. Before was 100% looking forward and happy. During was 60-40.  The time we had just wasnt as well spent as I thought it would have been,that caused the heavy heart. I know and understand your stand on your part. So the only thing I could do is to keep mum and just take everything in on myself.

At times like this,I wished you could see through me inside out so you dont have to question. Cos my heart gets heavier with every wrong speculation. I have only myself to blame cos I’m in a mess within. I should shoot myself for thinking too much and far,I complicate myself.

So now,I dunno what emotions I should put myself through.

Hmm,part of what I’ve written is caused by the (pre) time of the month. Me no like it.

Oh well albeit all the downs,I should be glad I havent come to a point of saying ‘it sucks to be me.’

Saturday

At bee’s now working on my BD while he sleeps like a lil baybee. Mouth wide open,hugging his bolster. So cute ha. Anyway,BD suck cos I cant balance the worksheet till now. Deadline next week and MST week after. I hate the next two weeks so come. Cant wait for the holidays. Bangkok with the family and bee’s having his block leave. Yay! Hmm, his mum just came in and gave me this cup of liang cha. Taste really yucky. But she says it’s good so I guess I got no choice but to finish it up :/ Alright,gonna jump at the fat boy and wake him up for dinner soon.

On a happier note,bitch’s coming back. Cant wait to see her. YAY!
Have a good weekend people!!

At fifteen..

Cause when you’re fifteen,
and somebody tells you they love you,
you’re gonna believe them.

And when you’re fifteen,
Don’t forget to look before you fall.
I’ve found time can heal most anything.
And you just might find who you’re supposed to be.
I didn’t know who I was supposed to be, at fifteen

I really should be asking myself,

Who matters and who doesnt. It’s only then I wont get all stressed up and feel like I’ve done wrong. Cos I know,that whatever I say,I say with a good intention. Ol’ habit sure die hard. Time to stfu and mmob. I shouldnt be too nice.  Should I rephrase and say. Pls remind me. I shouldnt be nice AT ALL,to people that dont matter

Good week to you and you and you! :)

Here comes another week. Debate on monday,FP presentation on wed. Need things like this to keep me occupied so I dont have time to think bout bee not around with me and start emoing. Bee’s not coming out this coming weekend which means I’ll have so much time on hand. I need to get started with common tests revision soon. Seems kiasu I know. But I dont think I am since I dont really know what I’m doing at school since the start of the sem. Hmm,what’s new? Furthermore,there wont be a break before the common tests this time round. So people,get started. Esp to those lost souls (i’m one good example ha). I wanna hang out with the best buds soon soon soon. They suck. Cos they’re forever suaning me. But hmm,I know they love me more than they mean what they say. HA! Oh well,enough rubbish talk from me. I’m gonna bath and prolly get some bitch talk with hh later. Have a good week people!!

Hello monday. Byebye sunday.

Slept for a good 12 hours last night. Had to replenish my sleep after a tiring week at school. I like it that I’m at home,surfing the net aimlessly and lying on bed with my eyes fixed at the ceiling,thinking of nothing. Haven had time like these for awhile. Bee’s back at camp now. He’s going for his field camp tml which means I wont be able to contact him till saturday. Gonna miss him but I guess it’s times like these I really know how to treasure the very lil time we have tgther on sats and having him around physically really means alot now. Well,I should be fine through the week. Gonna get started on projects,shed some weight (cos bee says I’m overweight on his list and I should go do something about it) and if I’m hardworking enough,go read up past lectures and write some notes since common test’s a months’ time.

Alright,gonna go get some orange juice to perk myself up and get started on BD. Have a good week ahead!